For the longest time now I've had a strange relationship with my diet and the gym, bouncing in and out of motivation, really trying to force my self to enjoy again what once was my biggest passion.
You see it kind of started after i competed, i left my prep a little late and had to get help from a coach to get me there, but due to the diet change and training in such a lethargic way, i sort lost my love for what i was doing, that and the constant social media pressure.
That pressure to get likes, be relevant, have amazing posts when in reality it was all bullshit, until one day i generally thought fuck it, i pretty much quit not only the gym but social media also and only going or posting for the last year when i wanted too, on my terms.
I was happy, kind of, although i wasn't, i thought it was what i wanted, to not go workout but the reality is i miss it, i miss the environment, i hate the fact i became somewhat lazy, eating shit, feeling shit.
Now I'm not going to promise anything, not put the pressure on myself to do anything really but i do want to document in some way me regaining my passion through different avenues of fitness, learning new things and hopefully teaching any of you who wish to read this, maybe helping some of you who may have recently lost motivation recently, to be honest over the last couple of weeks I've already made huge leaps, I've been researching explosive training to improve an athletes game or sport, plyometrics, olympic lifts, even observed and thinking of taking crossfit classes.
I really do feel the above is all positive steps for me regaining my health and fitness from the inside out and I'm going to try and keep it up, maybe come here and type when i feel like i need to let off some steam, being honest and showing that everyone goes through it and needs that boost from others every once and a while.
appreciate you taking the time to read this and ill make these as regular as possible